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so like i returned to the job on apr 9th… was actually regaining momentum at work when on wednesday morning, i was hit by a serious case of the chills and was also purging. i kept asking my colleagues whether they felt the freezing cold that i was experiencing and apparently, where i felt the chills the most (in my hands) – others that touched my hands say they didn’t feel cold (the hands, not my colleagues).

had initially planned to sweat it out til end of business.. but by lunchtime, i was already a wreck, trying to hold back nausea and also regain warmth by putting on layers (i had an extra suit jacket at the office) and holding mugs containing hot water.

finally gave in @ 1pm.. collected my ISIS out-and-about kit and me sorry-excuse-for-a-handbag and skedaddled out of the office. arrived home to sleep off the nausea and only managed to drag myself to the doc’s later in the afternoon.

needless to say, was given 2 days medical leave (thurs & fri) .. with the added warning that if i don’t get well by friday, i’ll need to get my blood checked. haiyah… that got me attention.. and i concentrated hard on getting well… no ngelat2 makan ubat or cheating on doing heavy chores.. even bathing kya and anaqi was a no-no – amir handled that.

alhamdulillah, come friday i was back to normal… and on my feet. kakak and anaqi was very the happy, of course.. sbb mama was at home 24 hrs a day.

so come monday, i had to psyche myself up to going back to the office again… this time taking it easy on being up and about before 6am.

wegra… baby photos can be found via ’shutterbug’ link above. am a bit slow in uploading since everytime i get hyped to upload, streamyx acts up and always kills my connection.

managed to meet up with nanie on monday.. was asked to attend a meeting @ faber towers that morn.. thot of calling up both nanie and farahshim as recalled ‘em working there.. but got so caught up with some issues before lunch that i only left klcc @ 1pm..

so gave a ring to both and only got nanie.. she was having tapau-ed lunch ) .. it had been so long since we met… the last time was at klcc when she had her first kid… and now, after i had my second…

but i guess will be able to see more of both farahshim and nanie as am actually assigned to do this new project with their group of companies

so the supposed date of apr 3rd earlier mentioned turned out to be apr 9th instead.

what happened?

the day i was s’posed to report back to duty, got me down with a cold.. the doc prescribed me with the mc required and told me to rest. hah! rest? when u have a newborn and a toddler to boot?… that word don’t exist in me vocabulary.

suffice to say i took longer than the requisite one day of rest to get well. so the day after, was given another mc. anaqi’s 2nd month check-up and immunization appointment was scheduled that week too – hence the decision to just extend my leave to last friday.

update on how i got thru the first day back at work

• woke up @ 5 am just so i can get everything in readiness (for work, pumping session, anaqi’s feed for the day etc)
• anaqi woke up early today and just gave me a quiet stare for roughly 20 mins – methinks he sensed something amiss when mama’s not lounging beside him at those wee hours of the morning
• kakak had a short bout of separation anxiety (i was on leave for nearly 2.5 months you see…)
• i had a bout of separation anxiety when i drove out of the porch of our newly rented place (that’s another post in itself)
• arrived at work by 8:00 am and realised i had no idea where exactly my team mates had relocated to.. i just knew the generic floor.
• after 3 calls, found out where we were at and headed to my new workplace
• was happily informed of all the worries of the world (that project world) within the first 20 mins of arriving
• spent nearly the whole day reconfiguring everything required to make me a functional member of the team
• managed to execute two pumping sessions… IN THE LOO (!!) as i couldn’t locate an appropriate secluded area on the floor (managed to ferret out the info later in the day after my 2nd pumping session whilst cleaning the equipment in the loo)
• saw a mother with a baby roughly anaqi’s age while leaving the office and felt like flying back home
• drove like a maniac (i wish..) home
• bagi salam at the gate and managed to eye anaqi waving his arms and pumping his legs frantically at the sound of my voice.
• salam-ed and kiss-kissed with amir and kakak – stored the milk in the freezer and had a quick drink
• finally gave anaqi his evening feed – i felt mucho mucho better afterwards (anaqi’s sighs of pleasure after finishing his feed attested to that too)

i think we’ll do alright…

on the note of changing job responsibilities – have yet to sit down with the div head… dun think i will until i’ve sussed out the situation with the project.